Carrie's Story ~
I find it hard to write about myself as my intention of this blog page is to point readers to YHWH and His righteousness. Although, part of this blog is also connecting with you and developing relationships with others that are on this wonderful Covenant Journey back to Paradise.
So with that said, I hope you don't mind reading a bit about me. Maybe you can relate to my story and hopefully you can be encouraged.
I grew up as a "non-denominational Christian". I guess that title was subconsciously embedded in my brain believing I didn't belong or subscribe to any particular religion. I sort of labeled my belief as a "simple faith". I did the normal Sunday church thing and felt that was my way of "giving back" to Him. He did so much for me, the least I could do was spend a couple hours per week attending my local church service, learning more and praising Him. As the years past though, that "simple faith" wasn't enough for me and I quickly realized it wasn't enough for Him. I then had such a strong desire to grow spiritually and truly walk out my faith. Attending a weekly church service and saying my prayers here and there just wasn't cuttin' it. I knew there was more, much more that I was missing out on to truly know Him. I felt this constant "heart tug" toward knowing my Father and His Son and that desire just continued to grow.
There were 2 distinct moments in my life where there was a paradigm shift toward truth and living out my purpose. The first was when my Dad was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer at the young age of 54. He was a healthy and a pretty active guy who all of a sudden, was terribly sick. I decided to believe that he would be healed however, that was not the outcome. Three months after being diagnosed, he died. I questioned everything I knew and had been taught. Not that I didn't believe it, but that I must be missing something. Was it me? Did I not do something right? Why could the disciples heal but I cannot? Has something changed since then? Or did I just not believe enough?
It was on that first initial search for truth (and much prayer) that YHWH's Word was manifesting in my life. He promises that "IF we seek and search for Him with ALL OUR HEART, THEN He will be found" and it finally took tragedy and chaos in my life to truly seek for Him with all my heart. Thankfully, He started to slowly reveal Himself in such a wonderful way! His truth was nothing less that earth shattering in a life-long comfy traditional religion that I was formally so content with.
From the revealing of His powerful magnificent Name to the unveiling of the true meaning of repentance and the path to eternal life, I was in awe and beyond grateful for what He was unveiling.
However, I still had a personal stumbling block in my life that was hindering me from being set free to live for Him. That became my 2nd distinct moment of discovering and shifting priorities. I was in a very "challenging" marriage for 17 years. I use that word loosely as through the pains of being unequally yoked, we learn a lot about the true desires of the partner that "we" picked. I realized in the last 5 years of that marriage that Yah did not pick that spouse for me, I did. I knew I needed to feel His reproof and experience years of pain based on the decisions I made (without Him).
I can truly say He is patient and He is merciful. Though I felt His discipline and was aware I brought on those life struggles myself, He eventually set me free. My ex found other desires and started his own life without me. I had lost everything tangible that I had worked for, for many years, Including my career. All of the unknowns and fear of the future resulted in the best thing for me, I was brought down to my knees. Again, Yah is so wonderful and merciful for He knows the plans He has for us, to give us hope and a future. Since that time, my life has truly been guided by Him.
I am happily married and equally yoked with an amazing husband! I finally realized my purpose in life and have jumped in with both feet and with my whole heart! When we allow Yah to lead, we will never be lost and we can never go wrong! I'm thankful and humbled that He uses me as a tool to point people to Him. I understand now that the best trick of the adversary is to make happiness our goal, instead of holiness. Yah promises blessings to those that love, seek and obey Him and He is faithful and true with His promises. I pray that this blog page will help guide you to His wonderful truth. His yoke is easy and His burden is light. We are to walk in His Light and I pray this page can help you do just that, as we all are on our journey back to paradise.
I find it hard to write about myself as my intention of this blog page is to point readers to YHWH and His righteousness. Although, part of this blog is also connecting with you and developing relationships with others that are on this wonderful Covenant Journey back to Paradise.
So with that said, I hope you don't mind reading a bit about me. Maybe you can relate to my story and hopefully you can be encouraged.
I grew up as a "non-denominational Christian". I guess that title was subconsciously embedded in my brain believing I didn't belong or subscribe to any particular religion. I sort of labeled my belief as a "simple faith". I did the normal Sunday church thing and felt that was my way of "giving back" to Him. He did so much for me, the least I could do was spend a couple hours per week attending my local church service, learning more and praising Him. As the years past though, that "simple faith" wasn't enough for me and I quickly realized it wasn't enough for Him. I then had such a strong desire to grow spiritually and truly walk out my faith. Attending a weekly church service and saying my prayers here and there just wasn't cuttin' it. I knew there was more, much more that I was missing out on to truly know Him. I felt this constant "heart tug" toward knowing my Father and His Son and that desire just continued to grow.
There were 2 distinct moments in my life where there was a paradigm shift toward truth and living out my purpose. The first was when my Dad was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer at the young age of 54. He was a healthy and a pretty active guy who all of a sudden, was terribly sick. I decided to believe that he would be healed however, that was not the outcome. Three months after being diagnosed, he died. I questioned everything I knew and had been taught. Not that I didn't believe it, but that I must be missing something. Was it me? Did I not do something right? Why could the disciples heal but I cannot? Has something changed since then? Or did I just not believe enough?
It was on that first initial search for truth (and much prayer) that YHWH's Word was manifesting in my life. He promises that "IF we seek and search for Him with ALL OUR HEART, THEN He will be found" and it finally took tragedy and chaos in my life to truly seek for Him with all my heart. Thankfully, He started to slowly reveal Himself in such a wonderful way! His truth was nothing less that earth shattering in a life-long comfy traditional religion that I was formally so content with.
From the revealing of His powerful magnificent Name to the unveiling of the true meaning of repentance and the path to eternal life, I was in awe and beyond grateful for what He was unveiling.
However, I still had a personal stumbling block in my life that was hindering me from being set free to live for Him. That became my 2nd distinct moment of discovering and shifting priorities. I was in a very "challenging" marriage for 17 years. I use that word loosely as through the pains of being unequally yoked, we learn a lot about the true desires of the partner that "we" picked. I realized in the last 5 years of that marriage that Yah did not pick that spouse for me, I did. I knew I needed to feel His reproof and experience years of pain based on the decisions I made (without Him).
I can truly say He is patient and He is merciful. Though I felt His discipline and was aware I brought on those life struggles myself, He eventually set me free. My ex found other desires and started his own life without me. I had lost everything tangible that I had worked for, for many years, Including my career. All of the unknowns and fear of the future resulted in the best thing for me, I was brought down to my knees. Again, Yah is so wonderful and merciful for He knows the plans He has for us, to give us hope and a future. Since that time, my life has truly been guided by Him.
I am happily married and equally yoked with an amazing husband! I finally realized my purpose in life and have jumped in with both feet and with my whole heart! When we allow Yah to lead, we will never be lost and we can never go wrong! I'm thankful and humbled that He uses me as a tool to point people to Him. I understand now that the best trick of the adversary is to make happiness our goal, instead of holiness. Yah promises blessings to those that love, seek and obey Him and He is faithful and true with His promises. I pray that this blog page will help guide you to His wonderful truth. His yoke is easy and His burden is light. We are to walk in His Light and I pray this page can help you do just that, as we all are on our journey back to paradise.
